study :)

esok perlu masuk kelas tingkatan 3, oh yeah the admin gave me one of the class for me to teach mathematics, since form 3 don't have PE anymore so i have so many free time (why u jealous with my time, hahha)
i never taught form 3 level (except for relief classes) actually, quite stressed out juga kot, but material dah ada so just let them know saja
surely i will try my best :) hopefully they can accept me

that's for tomorrow..

for the next day, i'll be learning the 'basic of softball'
err, don't ask me how to play the game, because i don't know, and never played it
but i've learnt about the glove, the ball, the bat, during PE time with kak R
kak R (guru cemerlang PJK) taught the students, and i myself be the student too :)

so this evening, i've spent my time to do some study bout this game (thank u google, wikipedia, youtube)
what can i say is this is one of the game for a rich one, because they used quiet expensive equipment

and asked myself : kenapa orang kaya suka main game yang bosan ye? hee no pun intended..
maksud saya di sini ialah: tengok golf sebagai contoh, mahal punya game, tapi main nya pukul bola je
sekarang tengok sofbol pula, equipment sangat mahal, glove sebelah tangan pun cecah ratus ringgit, main nya pukul and catch (oh yeah i'll learnt more later insyaAllah :)), tapi much more better la dari golf sebab sofbol ada juga lari-lari :)

* PE = Physical Education (pend. jasmani)

** thanx God that i'll be leaving the school for awhile 

since i'm very much frustrated with the physics' students

felt that i don't belong there, in front of them 

i am not being appreciated, and i'm restless.. 

i just need some time out from all of these, i need that space

sebak + terkilan..

itulah apa yang saya rasakan saat ini..
felt like crying pun ada, but no more tears

persoalan di dalam kepala ialah :
'saya ini tidak cukup bagus ke?'
'saya ini masih tidak boleh dipercayai?'

ya, saya akui, ilmu di dada masih terlalu banyak kurangnya
masih terlalu amat banyak yang perlu saya pelajari, perlu saya timba di sepanjang jalan ini
tapi apalah salahnya andai saya diberi ruang dan peluang bahawa saya ini layak untuk dihargai
at least.. show me the support(s)

i've spent my time, to think for the exercises to give
spent the time to check it, to make sure u make it (even though i know most of u just copy them from others)
and i also spent my lil time for that extra classes, which end up with few of you

dan petang ni, saya sangat terkilan
bila mana saya ternampak kamu boleh berjanji kepada yang lain, for the extra class
but never for my class, what the...?

** saya ini manusia sedar diri

saya sedar saya ini bukanlah siapa-siapa

bahkan tidak punya apa-apa

** kadang-kadang teknologi itu menyusahkan perasaan manusia 

rawak

dari riak wajahnya, K mungkin tidak sukakan saya, kerana saya ini cik-cerewet
S pula selalu buat saya melting, oh i'm having low specific heat capacity :P
dan Z pula always make me smile, can i say he's michael jackson in my eyes, hahha

anyway, i'm having fine and fun times with u guys, despite we've been through so much madness..